Wednesday, July 09, 2008

Love Lost and Love Gained


One year ago today, I had just learned that our Snowflake had passed.

I still think about her and it brings tears to my eyes. I miss her so much. I remember the pain so vividly. And yet, I can't help but recognize how my life is so different now.

A year later, I now have a baby boy inside of me that I love so dearly. And if I had my Snowflake, I never would have had my Sunshine. I can't picture my life any differently. It's so funny (well, not so funny actually) how life hands you these twists and turns. Last year, on this very day, I was wondering if I'd ever have a living child and here I am with an imminent arrival. He sure works in mysterious ways.

So, today, I reflect on the love I lost. I will never forget my second sweet angel and can't wait to hold her in my arms one day when I leave this earth. But it also makes me appreciate each day - each moment - with the love I've gained. Grateful just isn't a strong enough word to capture how I feel.

11 comments:

Geohde said...

I often think the same thing- there's no way I'd be having the babies I carry now if my first pregnancy had gone otherwise...

J

Fertilized said...

Sending you hugs!

Ms. Infertile said...

(((Hugs)))

niobe said...

Thinking of you.

Blankenship Babbles said...

Awww...what a beautiful post to remember your angel baby...Snowflake is definitely remembered here by all of us, but like you said, the Lord works in mysterious ways...both of your sweet Angels are up above waiting for you to welcome Sunshine into your open arms, they know you love them and will never forget them...Mr. Sunshine will always have 2 Guardian Angels to watch over him!!! XOXO

Meghan said...

Thinking of you and snowflake. We won't let her be forgotten

Anonymous said...

Beautiful post. Thinking of you.

Ashley

Road Blocks and Roller Coasters said...

It's amazing how loss can bring about such profound appreciation and love. Thinking of you, snowflake, and sunshine. ((HUGS))

Malloryn said...

::hugs:: You'll always remember her through Sunshine.

Andrea said...

Thank you so much for posting about this! It makes me feel more optimistic and hopeful. It's great to see a miscarriage survivor doing well and about to have a beautiful baby!

OVADUE said...

Such a beautiful post. I have many angels and it's hard to express my love for them, it's so painful. You did a wonderful job. Thank you.