Wednesday, February 13, 2008

The Vessel and Other Hump Day Musings

P-word mentioned

One thing I've learned upon my expedition into p-word-land is that you slowly become a vessel. A vessel for growing another life. My own life becomes decidedly less important than that of the little one growing inside of me. Not that I'm not okay with that. I just find it a bit humorous as certain situations make this change evident.

Yesterday, we had some freezing rain here in Maryland and it was quite a scene. Accidents everywhere. Pure nastiness. I got a call from my mother telling me to walk very carefully outside and to drive with extreme caution. After all, I'm carrying "precious cargo". After I assured her that I know how to drive, I hung up and laughed. I never would have gotten this call several months ago. This morning, DH - being the cautious, protective daddy that he is - told me I should delay going into the office. He didn't want Sunshine to get hurt. And then of course, after he has a bit of time to actually think, he backs up and says, "oh, and I don't want you to get hurt either". Thanks, honey.

It's just funny how I am no longer the forefront of people's worry. Instead, I am purely the vessel for bringing Sunshine into the world. I must stay safe if only to get to August. Don't get me wrong - I do appreciate the little extra attention people pay to make sure I'm okay. Except that it is not really about me. And at this moment, I know it will probably never be about me again. As it rightfully should be. And I like that so much more. Life is changing in little ways before the baby is even here.

The one thing that hasn't changed is my impatience. After I had time to think it over, I decided I did not really want to wait until 20 weeks or more to find out the gender. Damn it, I've waited long enough to conceive a baby and make it this far and I don't want to have to wait for another thing! So, DH and I decided that we will do a 3D ultrasound next Friday at 16w1d. The ultrasound place we are going to will do a gender ultrasound as soon as 16 weeks and if the baby is stubborn or we can't get a good shot of the goods, they will have us come back at 18 weeks for no extra charge. So, what have we got to lose? Sounds win-win to me.

Friday 2/22. 430pm. Hopefully we'll have a good idea of whether our little one will pee sitting down or standing up. And then maybe it will start to feel real. Maybe it will all start coming together like a puzzle. The pieces are still a bit scattered but I am starting to visualize the final picture. It's oh so pretty.

15 comments:

Amy said...

Yeah!!! Can't wait to hear if it is a boy or a girl! Just to let you know my baby is girl and she is around 4 or 5 years old! Have been following your blog for a while now and am almost on my way to Kazakhstan to become a mommy too!

Fertilize Me said...

Good for you for getting a 3d ultrasound! Good luck to finding out!

SaraS-P said...

Good luck finding out if it will be standing up or sitting down!

Baby Steps to Baby Shoes said...

Very exciting! I can't wait to hear if it's pink or blue.

alison said...

That's so very exciting! Their website makes me giggle, it's like "add music to your baby's images" - reminds me of wedding photographer shopping all over again.

I can't wait to find out if it's pink or blue!

Courtney said...

I can't wait to see what you find out! And might I add, it's so great to hear such a positive outlook on this pregnancy. It truly helps me to come out of my own shell just a bit and be more hopeful as well. :)

Hilary (The Trying Game) said...

Jealous! In Canada they have laws in place that forbid the parents from finding out the gender until 20 weeks. Oh I want to know so bad!!!

Good luck!

Gabby said...

Yea, I have just become use to it not being about me anymore. When my mother in law calls, the first thing she asks is, "How is Wyatt?" Uhm...well, he is in my uterus...???? Anyway, good luck at the 3-d u/s! I hope your able to see the gender!

Elizabeth said...

That "vessel" thing - I get it the worst from my MIL. It's so true.

Road Blocks and Roller Coasters said...

You're mom and DH are too cute! I think that is so sweet. It's true though--my mother in law treats me like a vessel now. Not that she doesn't care about me, which I know she does, but she is much more concerned with the cargo. It's cute.

I'm jealous. I want a 3D u/s. If my office doesn't offer me one eventually we may have to get one ourselves.

Rachel said...

I found that knowing the gender made everything feel more real for me.

I hope that they can tell you next week!

Meghan said...

My friend warned me when I told her about my positive that from this point on I was just a uterus to people.

And my both my parents called to make sure I got home safely last night...they haven't done that since I was 18!!

Baby Blankenship said...

I just got chills reading this blog...I can't wait to hear what little Chumley will be :)~ A Prince or a Princess!!!

lady in waiting said...

Yay, I am so glad you are finding out the gender! Can't wait :)

Karen said...

Friday 2/22. 430pm. Hopefully we'll have a good idea of whether our little one will pee sitting down or standing up. And then maybe it will start to feel real.

Speaking as a mom of 5 month old triplets... It never starts to feel real. Never. I still wake up wondering when it's going to stop feeling like some odd dream about someone else's life.