Wednesday, January 09, 2008

It's a Sunshine Day

Today I made the big switch from RE to OB. I wasn't sure what to expect but was pleasantly surprised. The office wasn't filled to the brim with fertiles, much to my delight. Even though I am officially the p-word, I still can't relate to myself in that way. I still look in the mirror and see the desperate, worrywart infertile. Not a boastful, glowing pregnant woman. I guess that sense of confidence will grow at the same speed as my uterus (?) But I was happy not to feel uncomfortable or out of place in a room full of huge, likely unplanned bellies. I'm not quite ready for that yet I don't think.

I was seen right away for a urine sample (I don't know how I always manage to pee all over the outside of the cup rather than inside of it) and never-ending bloodwork. We got a packet full of information about what meds are and are not okay to take, diets to quell nausea, a cute calendar with stickers to note all of baby's milestones, etc., etc. Then came the moment we had been waiting for - our sonogram. Everyone, meet our little Sunshine:


He or she was just chillin' during the ultrasound - so laid back. I saw a wiggle as the wand first entered but after that, our little one stayed still, lounging and facing us the whole time. I've never been able to see appendages on our babies before so this was a beautiful sight. Tears rolled down my cheeks as I looked at the screen. I just can't believe this is happening. I can't believe he/she is still with us. Still hanging on. Happy just isn't big enough of a word. I don't think there is any word that can encompass how I feel right now.

The baby measured right on track at 9w6d. We didn't get a heart rate but since I have a doppler and can use it whenever I want, the control freak in me decided to let it go and accept "normal".

Our next appointment is on February 6th. The day after DH's birthday. Four weeks away. I don't know how I'll make it. I'll be just about 14 weeks along. Aka Second Trimester. I can't even imagine getting to that point and it is hard to believe it is about three weeks from now. Please let me make it. Please let this be time. Please heal my womb from our past tragedies. I don't just want A baby. I want THIS baby. It's too late to go back now. I'm already in love. So this just has to work. It HAS to.

37 comments:

moosk said...

i'm so happy for you!! thanks for sharing the photo -- what cutie! :)

Melissa said...

Sounds like you had a great appointment. I'm glad Sunshine is holding on strong - just sit back and enjoy the ride!

Shelby said...

I'm so glad you had such a great appointment!! I'm SO excited for you!!

Road Blocks and Roller Coasters said...

What a cutie! So happy for you and praying that you can stay sane waiting for the next appointment. I'm right there with you (if it makes you feel any better). I have three weeks till my next appointment and it seems like an eternity!

Congrats again! :)

Ms. P said...

What a beautiful sight! Am completely thrilled for you and can't wait also to get the next doc update in four weeks. It DOES seem like forever!

Baby Steps to Baby Shoes said...

So very beautiful!!

alison said...

Sunshine is beautiful! Congrats, mom!

Barb said...

I'm so happy to see the baby looking so good!!

Kim said...

Whose blog ISN'T going to make me cry today?

Oh Kristen, I'm just ecstatic for you. And I really can't believe HOW close we are in this. I'm 9w5d today (but measuring 1-2 days ahead at any given scan)... isn't that crazy?

Kristyn said...

CRYING in CT for you! Thrilled!!!!!!

JJ said...

*waving to sunshine*! What a beautiful ray of sunshine you have--so glad it went well!

Fertilize Me said...

YAH!! There is Your Baby!!

Meghan said...

What a wonderful baby picture! So glad the appointment went well

Holly Crosley said...

What a perfect picture! You can see a whole baby!! Little arms and legs and you can tell baby is facing you!! How exciting. I am just overwhelmed with emotion for you!! My eyes filled with tears as I read your post. Praise God for this perfect little miracle!!

Leah said...

Oh, I am so happy for you. I know I'm a little hormonal, but your post made me cry. Words can't express how glad I am that things are going well. Yay for Sunshine!

Samantha said...

I'm so glad things are going well!

Denise said...

What a beautiful picture! Hello Sunshine!

Ms. Infertile said...

What wonderful news! I'm so glad that things are going well with Sunshine.
Praying that things keep going perfectly for you.

Emily said...

so happy for you and DH.. sunshine is beautiful!

Kate said...

That picture looks great! Congrats!!

singletracey said...

That is a beautiful picture my dear! Sunshine... you are a beautiful baby!!

I am so glad the appt went well and I hope 3 weeks FLIES by for ya!

Sherry said...

Oh K - I'm just so thrilled for you, hope everything continues to go smoothly!

Hilary (The Trying Game) said...

That is one gorgeous little Sunshine!

Congrats on the great appointment :)

M said...

I have so many tears for you right now....most of them being happy ones. I also have the pleading ones. I am so happy to see your little one doing sooooooo very well!!!!

Congrats!!!

Melissa said...

that beautiful photo is priceless!
congrats on the great news and progress! i am so happy for you!!!

Natalie said...

Beautiful... just beautiful! I'm so happy Sunshine is doing well in there!!!

Katie said...

What a beautiful baby! Congratulations!

Yodasmistress said...

Congrats girlie. Best of luck!

Amy said...

Will be praying hard for you for the next four weeks!!!!

OrchidLover said...

Hey Congratulations on the wonderful news! I'm sure you know that a sonogram at 10 weeks with a good heartrate is statistically excellent for pregnancy survival, but of course I understand your worry nonetheless. (I'm almost 22 weeks and still worrying like mad.) 14 weeks will be here before you know it!

hope548 said...

so glad all is well!

deanna said...

Absolutely gorgeous! So very happy for you both!

Grad3 said...

Hi Sunshine!!! ;) Great news hun!

Malloryn said...

Just beautiful... there aren't enough words. I'm so happy for you :)

Kym said...

Just Beautiful Kristen! I'm so happy that things are going so well. Believe it girl, this is it. You'll bring a baby home before you know it...YOUR baby! xoxoxo

Lori said...

I love experiencing this through you, Kristen.

Mary said...

I am so happy for you, I just can't say it enough! I LOVE the u/s picture and hope you are totally enjoying your doppler!!!