Friday, November 30, 2007

Out With A Bang

I can't believe I made it through NaBloPoMo. Are you guys sick of me yet? At least it appears I'm going out with a bang!

As I type, I'm laying on my back with a bead of Prometrium up in my hoo-ha. Last night was my first night on the progesterone and it wasn't bad at all. I wore a light pad today and the drippage was minimal. I was actually expecting it to be worse. I've been making sure to push it up there as far as it will go and to lay flat for 2 hours so it should have plenty of time to absorb. I noticed a spike in my temp this morning so I think it is working. At least I hope so.

My next beta is on Monday morning and I will get the results that afternoon. I don't know how I'm going to make it through the weekend. I'm trying to take comfort in the fact that I am doing all that is in my power to maintain my current state. And I'm just going to take it easy and veg out in my bed, watching chick flicks. We were supposed to go to the Redskins game on Sunday but I think I'm going to have to sit that one out. It is supposed to be rainy and cold and, well, that just doesn't sound like fun to me.

As far as symptoms go, I really don't have many. I'm a bit bloated - I look like I'm about 8 weeks along, rather than 4. My pants are tight around the waistline. I think my boobs are a little fuller - being an A cup, I notice (and welcome) any enlargement. And I'm now getting headaches, but I think that is from the progesterone. That's about it.

I'm trying to keep my chin up and my head above water. Stay positive. It's hard because my natural instinct is to defend myself and prepare for the worst. But how can I not become attached to this little life that depends on me for its nourishment and existence? I am guarded but I am also slowly falling in love with my little embryo. It is useless to fight it.

Powers that be, please don't take my sunshine away.

28 comments:

Grad3 said...

Never sick of you ;)

Hoping that you are able to find lots of distraction this weekend and glad to hear the prog. isn't so bad. I didn't really think it was either. The spike is a good sign that your body is taking it.

The pants not fitting was always my first sign that something was up...

Hoping that the rainy days have passed and the sun is here to stay
~Hugs~

Yodasmistress said...

I am sooo sick of you. Every day I tell myself "Gotta remember not to go to Kristen's blog today" but then I forget and go and do it anway. Sheesh! ;-)

Good luck darlin! You've got a TON of people rooting for you!

LeRoy Dissing said...

Everything you have written sounds promising Kristen. Will be praying for you and him/her!

Natalie said...

I for one enjoyed your daily posts!!

I'm sorry your progesterone is low.... the funny thing about those progesterone suppositories is that, yeah, you get some drippage.... but when I stopped them? the drippage didn't stop. So just normal pregnancy wetness is about the same!

Melissa said...

I'm glad the suppositories aren't as bad as you thought they'd be. Even if they're a bit unpleasant, it's well worth it! Keep that embryo safe and warm, ya' hear? I've got everything crossed for you!

Kim said...

Yeah, my suppositories weren't bad either... until the gross stuff built up.. lol.

I'm so excited for you, I'll be thinking of you all weekend.

Leah said...

Sick of you? No flippin' way!

Prometrium is a hot, sticky mess. It gets worse as you shove more up there. But totally worth it to help little babies stay snug and happy inside of us.

Hmmmm . . . no Redskins game? Perhaps that means you'd like to come to the Cookie Exchange?! I have a nice, comfy couch where you could lay your progesterone-laced self and we could all take turns bringing you new types of cookies and hot chocolate. How can a pregnant chick resist such an offer? :-)

Mary said...

How could ANYONE get sick of you?

You ENJOY your weekend in bed with your hormone stuffed va-jay-jay (as Oprah would say...)I only wish I could send you some bon-bons to get you through, but I am sure DH is supplying you with all your wishes! ;-)

lady in waiting said...

OMG!!!! I go away for a few days and come back and you are pg?! AMAZING! Congrats to you sweetheart. And that is an excellent beta for 13DPO. Don't worry about the progesterone, lots of people need it. 14 isn't that low. My RE said anything above 15 is fine, so you're just about there on your own anyway. I have been on the PIO shots for almost 2 months now. Whatever it takes for the little one to get here, right?
Good luck on beta #2!!

Fertilize Me said...

Never sick of you at all.. post away! I am very glad that the progest experience isn't been a bad one yet. I think you have hte idea... lay around, take it easy and rest up. ALl sounds like excellent ideas. I am wishing and sending up postive vibes for the lil sunshine to stay!

Cindy Nguyen said...

So awesome you are pg and I'm rooting for your little sunshine.

Ms. P said...

Things sound good (though they may not feel great down there!) Hang in there!

Samantha said...

Good for you for making it through NaBloPoMo. I'd never be sick of you :)

I hope you're having a relaxing weekend.

Road Blocks and Roller Coasters said...

Praying that your sunshine sticks with you for the long haul.

HUGS and lots of prayers!

Debby said...

Let yourself go and fall madly in love with your little one. Loving more is never something to regret.

I just know your beta on Monday will be great!

Meghan said...

We couldn't get sick of you ;)

Glad the progesterone wasn't that bad for you. I think its the twice a day that gets me those most. I just hate that morning wake up I get.

And I second Leah's idea. If you're not going to make the game, I think that little bean of yours wants some cookies!! I'll personally wait on you!

Geohde said...

Hoping that you receive a wonderfully reassuring beta come Monday,

xx

J

s day said...

YOU ARE INCREDIBLE! GOOD LUCK ON MONDAY.

JKH said...

I'm holding out hope that everything is doing just fine with your little emby. Take it easy...can't wait to hear your results on Monday!

Emily said...

i LOVED that I could count on a post from you everyday! Now, I'm sad that you don't "have" too.

hope you had a good weekend taking it easy.

still sending lots of sticky vibes!

said...

I hope Monday goes well!
...and I never get sick of reading your blog :o)

Ms. Infertile said...

Always love reading your posts. Thinking of you today.

elin said...

hello babe, i am thinking of you today and keeping you in my prayers. lots of love to you and little sticky bean xx xx (((((((Safehugs))))))) xx xx

Anonymous said...

Which one is the hoo ha ?
(It's me FIL NW)

In and Out of Luck said...

I'll check back later but I'm thinking of you a lot. I am wishing you all the best.

Grad3 said...

Just wanted you to know I am waiting with you and thinking of you this Monday afternoon... ~Many hugs~

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